If you hadn’t noticed, I’m required to post a weekly blog for CGA. To be honest, sometimes I don’t have anything profound to say. Shocking I know.
I’ve lost a few subscribers since I started blogging weekly and my views per blog are down 75%. Eish. I’m wondering if this is because I’m not on the race anymore and the U.S. seems boring to people, or if blogging once a week is too much. Has it lost its appeal because I’m putting stuff out there so often rather than only once or twice a month? If you have genuine feedback please share your thoughts with me.
Blogging weekly has helped me be more true to myself in my posts. Before I was always concerned with putting a good story out, something with a build up and resolution. But the reality is that in my life there aren’t always resolutions for me to give you. So I’ve put less effort into making my posts clean cut, and as close to perfect as possible. The result has been that I’ve expressed myself much more honestly and freely. I like that.
So in the spirit of honesty and freedom, CGA is really freakin’ hard sometimes. Lately I’ve been feeling overwhelmed with the amount of things I have to do. I haven’t figured out how to take care of myself, make and maintain friendships, fundraise, and fulfill the program expectations. This week our guest speaker shared with us about praying for our nation’s leaders. She’s definitely right, we totally should do that, but all I could think was, “When am I supposed to have time to do this?”
The plus side is, I’m learning a lot. I’m doing my best to be a sponge and just soak everything in. Worship Track is teaching me how to let myself be creative in ways I never thought of before. My apprenticeship is pushing me to lead in ways that I wouldn’t have considered prior to coming here. And my courses are pouring truth over me and challenging me to live more like Jesus.
I believe this is a season of refinement for me. You know how coal turns to diamonds when its put under a heck of a lot of pressure? Google says this is false but the metaphor is working for me so let’s go with it.
I’m the coal. And I’m really hoping that I come out of this season a diamond.
Also in the spirit of honesty and freedom, I REALLY NEED MONTHLY SUPPORTERS. I’m looking for people who are willing to commit to $25, $50, or $100 per month. One time donations are also welcome and so appreciated. Fundraising covers my housing, food, and all the program expenses. If you want to know more please email me at [email protected]. I would love to answer any questions you may have and share more with you about how CGA is impacting the Kingdom.
